Day 3 - Decorating the Apartment

Don’t mind the permanent indent on my nose from the mask but look at the joy in my eyes from this sandwich!

Yes to back room treats.

Got a package!

I found a sweater I forgot I bought! I left it in a bag of Christmas decorations and forgot it was there and I pulled it out today when I was decorating! A Christmas surprise!

Navi decided to come and help me decorate.

Navi decided she should test out my bedding first just to make sure it was ok for me to sleep in.

It can now be snowing every night in my room.

Me taking in the lights, eating a lemon bar from the craft show. Feeling good.

Little Christmas tree is all decorated!

Cozy living room, ready for Christmas movies!

I almost wish I worked from home so I could get paid to work with these Christmas lights. (Okay not almost, I 100% wish that).

Today started really lovely actually. I originally tried to wake up at like 8am, but that eventually just turned into me giving up on the 5 minute snooze button and just resetting the alarm for 9. I wanted to try to get some tidying done before work but I was so cozy and warm and I didn’t have work until 11:30 so I allowed myself a little extra time. Since I was asleep so early last night I got lots of rest for what’s bound to be a busy weekend. And Navi is always right there by my side to greet me.

With work taking up most of the day, my real joy started when I got home. But this day wouldn’t be complete without mentioning the really great sandwich my Dad made for me for work that I actually remembered to bring with me! I hate having to buy food in the mall over the weekend so I was grateful to hide in the back room and eat in peace. We even had some little treats in the back room so I decided to indulge myself. It gave me what I needed to survive the rest of a busy day.

When I got home the package I talked about yesterday arrived! So here’s the things. I have been looking to complete my Christmas bedding for years. And I’ve been searching for a duvet cover since November but struggling to find any that were worth the cost and would get here in time, and I’m trying really hard to avoid Amazon where I can. But I found one and it is perfect and I am so happy and can’t wait to sleep in it. Will report back tomorrow on coziness levels.

It was perfect timing too because I finally started decorating my apartment for the holidays tonight. I tidied up the apartment said goodbye to fall decorations for good (thank you dollar store decorations for your service…until next year!) I decorated my mini Christmas Tree (Navi helped), put up some lights in my room, and added some lights to my “office” as well. It feels so cozy and I am very content. Honestly I know part of that just comes from having tidied up a bit. It’s so hard to find the energy to do things 100% and follow through on tidying and cleaning routines so my apartment needed that push to get tidied up. I’m hoping having the decorations up will help motivate me to keep things in order so I can really enjoy the ambience and the environment. When the area around me starts to break down…so does my mind. If only I had the energy to do something about it! Oh well. I am trying to “give myself some grace” as my therapist says. Shit is getting really graceful around here.

Anyway! Now I’m writing this up, and I’m not even half asleep which is impressive, listening to ASMR, with Christmas lights and just feeling really chill. What a nice feeling. I’m going to try to hang on to it.

Who knows what tomorrow will bring, but I am going to sign off now and tuck myself in. I hope you are staying warm, and doing something today that helps you feel good. Maybe it’s your turn to tidy, or maybe it’s your turn to give yourself some grace for another night. You decide my friend. And in the mean-time, I’ll be here back again tomorrow to try to spread a little joy from my heart to yours!

-B