Day 17 - Beginning the Weekend Survival
The last weekend before Christmas! How are we already here?! I know everyone says this and I know I especially say it every year, but I can’t believe we’re almost done. I feel like this year has left something to be desires as 24 Days of Joy. Between work and not really feeling comfortable going out and doing anything it hasn’t left much room to show you much! And I know that’s not the point - I know the point is, no matter what I’m up to, to try to find the joy in it. That’s also been particularly challenging with me working through some exceptional burnout on top of seasonal depression which usually waits until January or February but this year was like, nah…let’s get together now! One thing I’ve learned from my new job is that once you’re at the top, everyone forget to give you the positive feedback, or recognition or just to tell you they care sometimes. It’s not that my teams don’t show it, they do, but there’s a lot they don’t see behind the scenes. they don’t always see the hours I work off the clock, or the time it takes to make sure they get paid on time, and that’s just part of the job and that’s okay. But when you get that recognition - damn it’s like I’ve never heard a compliment before. A habit I got from my last manager was whenever saying goodbye to someone for the day saying “Thank you for all your hard work” and I was saying that last night and they said “Thank you for your hard work” and I swear to the sweet baby Jesus I almost cried.
Anyway not sure where all that came from! Oh yeah! I was in awe of how fast time has flown and how I feel like I haven’t done much. The season isn’t over! Don’t fret! We’ll fit in what we can! I still have gift wrapping and hopefully some small family gatherings (I’m feeling lucky that my family is small with everyone included or it would be another tough Christmas).
So back to day 17 - I started it how I usually start when I close which is intending to wake up at 8 and actually waking up after 9 - when will I learn? I did some blogging and you have to start the day with a cup of Brewsters. I put myself together again today and I can’t believe I forgot to take a photo because my theme today was Christmas presents and I got zero good evidence. I have however, included some photos of me disheveled in the back room trying to drink a coffee on the one break I had. It wasn’t outrageously busy yesterday which was good but it was non-stop so it kept us going. I am also thankful for the McDonalds app today because I ran all the way across the mall to the food court just to find out I’d left all my cards back at the shop. But I was able to still get food by placing my order and damn it was ready in like five minutes! Which means not only did I get a meal break, I got to actually eat on my meal break so that’s pretty cool!
I ended up staying over an hour later because I had a feeling it was going to be an incredibly busy Saturday on Day 18 and I wanted to try to set everyone up a bit better which meant It was almost midnight by the time I got home so there wasn’t much time for me to go too wild. I did however have time for a nice relaxing bath and our mall neighbors brought us cookies again!! So that means I had wine and cookies and a nice bubble bath before bed which is just what I needed. I went right to sleep and as stressed and mentally exhausted as I am, I am also weirdly well rested. In the past I’ve worked two part time jobs and all I remember is wishing I could just sleep in between jobs. At least now when I’m done I’m done and don’t have to go to a second job.
It’s supposed to snow Day 18 so my manifestation may have worked. I’m determined to make it a happy holiday, even if it doesn’t feel the same for me, I want to make it happy for everyone else and I think that will bring me joy in the end too.
Let’s see what happens!
-B