Day 10 - Tree Decorating and All the Bath Bombs

Ah day 10 - a much desired day off. After my late night last night and my lack of sleep it’s no surprise that I slept in until noon. Don’t get me wrong I woke up almost every hour still, but I just wasn’t ready to face the day yet. Even with no alarm my body just naturally seems to get me up early even when I’m exhausted.

So I’m grateful for a nice cozy bed to drift off to sleep in. When I was finally ready to get going, I parked myself on the couch and worked on my blog from the previous night. Christmas lights and Dan and Phil festive Youtube videos are things I’ve been using to bring me joy for many years. And Navi of course keeping me company and killing me with her cuteness definitely makes my days better. The comfort of a companion like her does wonders on hard days. Not that today was particularly but I’m just particularly grateful for her.

I morning…er….afternoon bath, a meal and hot a tea later I was wearing something other than my pajamas and spending time relaxing and playing my games. I told myself I wasn’t going to nap but I hit a wall at around 4pm and couldn’t resist. The cozy lights, the warm Christmas blankets and a furry pet snuggling next to me…I gave in to temptation.

After my power nap, I headed to my parents place to help them decorate their tree and carry out my regular Christmas duty of setting up the Christmas Village. I’m sure I talk about this every year, it’s something we’ve had since I was a baby, maybe before. It all started with a Church that my grandmother bought my Mom, and every year our collection has grown. And every year my Mom says no more, but somehow every year there ends up being a new addition….hmm mysterious!

We decorated the tree and listened to Trans Siberian Orchestra to help get us in the mood and by the time it was done I was feeling pretty worn out. My social battery was running low and I knew I needed to just decompress for a bit. I think there was also a little sadness trying to break through the surface of all the Christmas cheer. And I need to remember that that’s okay. It’s okay to feel sad and also experience joy for other things or even the same thing at the same time. I know this time of year isn’t holly jolly for us all, and it’s okay if you’re not there this year. It’s ok to feel sad, or lonely. I know those are hard feelings. You don’t have to ignore them, I know I can’t. But I can at least try to make room for all those emotions to co-exist.

I played some computer games, drank a hot caffeine-free tea, and ended the night with a bath and trying to write. Lots of thoughts swirling around my mind so in an attempt to get them out of my brain I did some writing. Still struggling to turn my mind off at night, but at least it’s not taking 4-5 hours like that first night. ASMR is my saving grace!

I am looking forward to tomorrow - it should be a busy and fun day at work and then I’m excited to hang out with my best friend again and catch up on our show!

Until then friends,

-B